No reason to get out of bed

In the morning I have no reason to get out of bed. No reason to try for. No love, no fortune or happiness everyday, every week. Or does it only look like that?

They told me in the hospital that I am suffering from a depression. Could be, because at the moment I am not happy or joyful.

I am 17, but s many things have happened in my life already.. things I should not have experienced. It's like that's still hanging around somewhere and the last weeks/months it's like I don't give a f*ck anymore, about nothing or no one.

There's no trust in the future and I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this to my parents, they have already enough to deal with. I'd like to go to a therapist, but I don't have money for that because I am young.

So everybody who reads this would help me a lot if you could give some tips, or share your story and how you got out of it. And for the people that feel lost like me, you are not alone, even if you think you are: I'M WITH YOU